[ Fri Mar 05, 04:36:23 PM | serial dreamer | edit ]
a levels' results day again

i sure remember that day... hard to believe one year's passed, innit?
well whatever grades you get, you realise at one point we're all gonna end up together someplace. heh.
i cut my hair short and highlighted it dark red and purple. darn should've gone more radical but
the fears of damaging my hair butted in to make me succumb to the hairstylist's advice...

seriously. do you think that when we sit in hairdresser's chairs we are totally powerless? haha i think so.

on another note. the other day there was this nice nice guy who was walking in front of me in my estate
and he held open the park gate for me.... though he was a little ways in front
and though he bumped his head on the bus door (yeah tall too!!) he didn't burst into obscenity
he just said "ow".... how endearing. haha singaporean guys should all be like that.
man... just the other day i went to a chinatown field trip with a guy friend (whose name i shall not disclose lest he be one of my visitors who drop by and NEVER leave comments *hint hint*) and EVERY chance he got he dashed into the shade... or stuck his hand into a shop to check for airdrafts. "aiyooooh, so HOT so HOT!"
*shakes head vigorously...tut tut*

where are all the nice, charming, heat-tolerating guys nowadays?
sigh.... i saw one such nice guy buying baby's breath at the school co-op today. must be for girlfriend.
*BIG SIGH* maybe the truth really is that they're either gay, totally incompatible with you, or utterly taken.
[ Wed Feb 25, 03:31:19 PM | serial dreamer | edit ]
i think i'm drowning

no it's not the cheesy boy band song. i'm head deep in my homework (essays, projects, presentations) and readings..
everything's undone or halfdone (i even wish it were halfdone but noooo)
everyday this week rushing to different places in the same day.. reaching home at 10 plus for dinner
eating irregular, unbalanced meals.
but there's a sorta headrush. maybe i'm meant for the corporate world heh.
man, i thought i'd be having this semester down pat, but apparently i'm being humbled.
i can't wait for april to be over.

time to do my essay. sigh. contrary to what some may think, i'm really not proficient with my words at all. i could be a lot more concise, succinct and coherent, according to my lit tutor. thanks for the criticism.
[ Wed Feb 18, 11:36:12 PM | serial dreamer | edit ]
random wanderings of my mind these past few days

1. nowadays, the brain is more polluted than ever. sigh. incidentally, did you ever wonder why it looks so disgusting physically? all those creepy crevices and slimy folds..... ugh. i don't like my thoughts sometimes.

2. if breadcity sells bread, does turfcity sell turf?

3. i'm interested in this guy from one of my classes. one of the pale, depressed souls that my heart tells me i can brighten up forever.... the kind that looks mild and quiet but conceals a dark witty intellectual side.. haha unfortunately he's taken. story of my life.

4. i've discovered juice for my skin... and it really works.

5. daniel's going to thailand for a community service trip. the rural areas. i'm worried. the avian flu. the chicken flew. should daniel fly too? (heh i'm just being a lil' corny here, indulge me wontcha.)

6. i had a dream i was a sesame street character. and someone kept trying to eat my half-boiled eggs... and when i was supposed to transcend my physical body to try and get out of the messed-up state i was in (aka googly-eyed being), my handphone rang, t'was my friend giving me a wakeup call. eerie to the max.

7. is there anything sadder than toys on a grave? i just read and watched Fannie Flagg's 'Fried Green Tomatoes at the Whistle Stop Cafe'. cry buckets at 3 am with my mom. i'm a sucker for such storylines.

8. i've got too much homework. but then again, so does everyone in singapore. it's a conspiracy, i tell ya.


[ Thu Feb 12, 05:05:21 PM | serial dreamer | edit ]


yupyup here's my jc class SC9 which i haven't seen for quite awhile before last saturday. so here they are.. nobody's changed much which is good. depletion of guys huh. i think most of the girls here don't have boyfriends (correct me if i'm dead wrong haha) so what are they waiting for?

ANS: for guys to grow up. wahaha xD dream onn....
[ Sun Feb 08, 07:05:28 PM | serial dreamer | edit ]
fell sick this week... i guess it was a reminder not to get too confident about one's immune system
just told my aunty i didn't fall sick this new year which was a first in a long while.. normally i get sore throat.
heh and the next day *boom* i'm "gimme-tissue-paper-gal".

hadda sleepover on friday night... during the day jo drove my dad's car (!!!) around... heh felt really fun
although she really had difficulty remembering roads and how to even get out of my estate haha
we baked tons of chocolate chip cookies (fast going going gone) and i got driven to my basic theory driving test
*fingers crossed* hope i pass the first time round', it'll be really embarrassing if i don't.
haha not to mention the fact that i only took 20 minutes.... sigh it's only a 3 choice mcq type a' question format what

oh! and had class gathering last night at heeren marche... talk about wanting to leave early... i left the place at 11
but it was really great to see everybody again! trish drew jiating audrey angeline martha corinne olivia kok becky joanne alicia arjun and last but not least jinfen who's leaving.. take good care gal!
*sob* everyone's leaving me behind... i wanna leave tooooo
photos will be up soon i guess. this time i'll save the photographs on an unlimited server...
oh i hope i get accepted for student exchange programme haha.... we'll see how in october

speaking of which, i better maintain my grades..
i'm starting to get a little scared about schoolwork (and here i am online)
haven't done my readings yet for south asia, changing landscapes, theatre ETC., nor lifted a finger for project work
oh dear oh dear oh dear. there's some stupid mixup about my project groups... apparently two people in my group
got listed in 2 different groups and they decided to abandon mine. i'm so depressed... i haven't even met them before
and they decided they don't like me.... bleah time to start highlighting... read read READ

[ Sun Feb 01, 06:49:36 PM | serial dreamer | edit ]
went out into the streets of jurong east today for street evangelism...
my first time! haha must admit i was a bit scared too... didn't know how people would react
though i know that fear is the absence of faith and letting the conjurations of the mind takeover..
and to tell the truth some of the rejections were pretty frightening, okay maybe only one or two
but it was an eye-opener and i guess i know how street e feels now.
i'm glad my dg and i managed to spend time together and bond through this experience too!
thanks for all the effort gals.

went to watch the odd couple yesterday as well by neil simon.... very funny play
at dbs singapore repertory theatre robertson walk
the audience was laughing most of the time (and there was this xiaoxiao woman in the front row laughing her guts out even during the silent moments... weird)
i urge everybody to go watch haha and whoever has the script come find me i wanna read it! some stuff i didn't quite manage to catch. the wit flew too hard and fast... was irked by the bimbotic representation of females as sex symbols though. bleah aint we good for anything else in the entertainment industry?

i spiked my maggi mee with smoked tabasco
[ Sun Jan 25, 01:29:11 AM | serial dreamer | edit ]

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it's still raining. i can't believe it. did i curse the skies somehow?

you know, these days i'm re-reading the Divine Secrets of the Ya-Ya Sisterhood books again... always feeling a tremendous sense of losing out on having a shared history with close ones when suddenly an epiphanic moment struck.

i actually HAVE that privilege.

you know, the pictures we've shared ever since our day ones... the silly Swisses Cottages Primalies Schools Gong and all those craaaazzy confounded convoluted names we've thought up for one another.. the chalets we used to stay in altogether when we were titchy-small.. the hairy man at the swimming pool and eating our vitamin Cs after they float outta our mouths..the way we share the same laughter and laugh at the same stupide things (like our parents say, "all xiao xiao one")...heh we always take our families for granted. so cuzzins dah-lings all, this is a tribute to yall. only we can dance DDR all day long when it's soaking wet outside, only we can have salty soup in a seafood can (thanks to josh the chef), and only we can fantasize about having a 22+++ people cruise this june! crosses fingers tightlygrrreat chinese new year. heh though i didn't manage to lo hey at all.

heh and i couldn't find that silly quiz i did in which i'm meant to marry orlando bloom... dango it. actually i'druther viggo but he looks weird without that mane of hair. funny. whaaatever.

byeeee for now and yall better behave yourselves or i'll make you WEAR SOCKS. hahaahahaaa xD

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[ Thu Jan 22, 12:49:28 AM | serial dreamer | edit ]
oh what a wonderful day/ the skies are all creamy and the clouds are all grey

i baked about 250 cookies today. i think.
i figure if i can still stand up and bake and have people compliment me on my baking life's pretty okay.
haha. what a funny weird strange person am i.
mrs fields' (i just used her recipes that'sall) oatmeal chews or chocolate chip cookies, anyone?

it's just normal i guess, to go off into a spinning sad depresso tangent sometimes.
it proves you're human? sigh.. i want to jump off into the dark side occasionally hahaa

thanks my dears who say i'm in their thoughts and prayers, who called to chat awhile. i needed that.

school's gearing up and people (well at least arts people) in my new classes are starting to warm towards each other... haha i suppose cinq heure of french last tuesday really bonded us in hunger at least. ",)
i'm happy with life. it's just that i get down sometimes. don't mind me.

bon nouvel au chinois tut le monde!
[ Mon Jan 19, 11:20:34 AM | serial dreamer | edit ]
ever felt like saying "go away let me sleep for two days straight"?

WELL I WANNA SAY THAT. JUST TWO DAYS PLEASE.

sigh i'm just tired of thinking thoughts i shouldn't be thinking
feeling emo that i shouldn't be feeling
wanting to rampage through the past like a liquid-paper rhino
erasing things on history's paper that happened so i don't bear grudges against people
i don't want to obliterate certain people off the face of this earth. but it so happens i do.

it's easy to construct a blog that's black all over and blasts angsty music.
it's harder to pretend you're a sane person, someone who can lead
when really, you're splitting to pieces inside. what if you lean too far out, what will happen to your charges?

just skip school for the time being and clean up everything
[ Sun Jan 11, 06:02:01 PM | serial dreamer | edit ]
i really. Really. REALLY. REALLY don't like crowds. especially the ones in orchard road.
they make all the bad traits of my conscious surface... the invisible curses that hang above my head when people push past you in the mrt even though you're getting off the same stupid stop as they are... the weird getups that singaporeans don.. even the loud conversation this lady next to me had on the phone this early morning when i sat in the mrt irked me.... i could nearly piece together the whole drama of her current situation.. some good friend who went one step too far or something along those lines.

sigh. maybe it's just the fact that i woke at 6.45 am this morning, and waited for 40 minutes in toa payoh terminal. i HATE waking up early. one of the worst things in the world. and couldn't doze off cos' i'd imbibed brand's chicken essence with ginseng, practically the only thing that can keep me awake for about 3 hours. even better than double shot espresso. that, and the problem of not being able to find a pair of shoes for new year. sigh... sometimes i feel downright silly, and guilty buying new clothes when others are glad enough to have just a few shirts for variety. oh well. it's just a good thing that i don't like shopping for shoes and bags then. all the sequins and stitches and needless ornaments just seem like such frivolity. i even saw a white-and-red shoe with a bunch of grapes and a pair of cherries hanging off a strap. and my mom suggested i buy it. yipes. no way.

anyway. i'm just glad that today's taekwondo grading's over.... i let my brain takeover automatic once the pattern started and i mistook zero thrust for forward command (i always wonder who came up with those terms anyway)... yikes friends who were watching saw me bungle up.... but i hope the examiner was busy writing a 'double' on my grading card haha..... dream on.

and i'm off to play gunbound. yeah. gail's got me hooked. the little gal's just too cute... and i really wanna buy something for her... haha sounds quite nuts. don't worry i don't play for hours on end. and if you wanna add me... give me your nick and real name at the comment box down there *points to tranquil lake* and noone's yet commented on the new photos i've put up... hey where's everybody???
[ Fri Jan 02, 12:04:27 AM | serial dreamer | edit ]
i'm tired, so let's summarize.

1) thanks all who remembered me in their card-writing and present-giving this past year.

2) thanks all who willingly spent time with me, i'm a high-maintenance person that way, i'm sure you all know.

3) christmas was fast, but i managed to spend more time with God and i think that's preferable to shopping. ",)

4) i shall call the christmas of 2003 the "earring year" because i got 7 pairs of earrings. not complaining though.

5) had jazz vocal workshops on monday and tuesday with ja. very fun, forgot how much i miss singing training...

6) parent-youth gathering was amazing... didn't really plan much but the thoughts poured from the brain into the mouth. thanks to all the parents who listened attentively and gave so much support!

7) the last day of 2003 was well spent in my opinion. had post-mission trip gathering, thanksgiving service and time of reflection at jubilee. risk in wee hours of morning at jov's. may we stay accountable to each other and stick together, because the going gets tough as the mileage grows higher.

8) next semester i'm taking south asian culture and history, reading film texts, french 101, a geography changing landscapes module and lastly theatre: stage and screen. school starts late and ends late, like at eight. pray for good time management and sticking to my resolution to study more consistently.

9) my free days are on wednesdays. feel free to ask me out, but i've taekwondo at night.

10) i'm a girl. don't forget that. =) and stop calling me dude or man or whatever. i need TLC *you know what i'm talking 'bout*

11) time to grow up. sigh. change is inevitable, but we can always hold fast to what we know to be the truth.

  posted by juice.susceptible @ 4:40 PM